6/23 – The day before the Mission Hospital Golf Tournament
Tomorrow I am volunteering at Mission Hospital’s golf tournament. I will also win an Audi from the opportunity drawing because I am praying to win it. Now don’t get me wrong, I’m not promoting that people should pray for material things. Lately, I’ve been focusing on prayer in ALL aspects of my life: my relationships, my career, self-improvement, wisdom, friends & family, provisions, health, etc. Just like the saying “there’s no such thing as a dumb question,” I believe that there is no such thing as a prayer not worth praying.
I’ve been reading a book called the Circle Maker by Mark Batterson. This book has really opened my eyes to the importance of praying no matter how big or small your request or dream might be. They key is to pray continuously and know that God is powerful enough to answer any prayer we may pray. To clarify, God does not answer all prayers exactly the way we are expecting but if we are faithful to pray continuously, he will bless us.
There is a verse in the bible that says, you have not because you ask not (4:2-3). The passage also goes on to say that you receive not because you ask with wrong motives. In the case with this Audi, I need a new car. Mine is almost at 200k miles and I have a feeling something is about to go wrong at any moment. I’ve made two promises – one that I will post this regardless of the outcome tomorrow and two that I will donate my old car and use the Audi to help whenever I can (making deliveries for nonprofits and whatever opportunities to help with the car come my way).
Let’s say the worst case happens tomorrow – sure I’ll be a little bummed but I know that God will have other blessings in store. AND I’ll never think, “If I had only prayed for that, maybe I would have gotten it.”
6/24: The night after the Mission Hospital Golf Tournament
I did not win the Audi. As it was getting closer to the time for the drawing, I had a lot of hope but also a peace of mind that no matter the outcome, I was going to take a valuable lesson away. As I thought that, it occurred to me that as much as I wanted to win the car, maybe I should pray that whoever needed the car the most would win it. So I did. While I hoped that I would be the person who needed the car the most, I realized that sometimes we pray for things only applicable to us without looking at the bigger picture. When I first started praying to win the Audi, I thought… “I would like to win this car so I should pray to win it because maybe the reason I wouldn’t win it is because I didn’t ask for it.” Now I realize my prayer for something material could have been more dynamic and less self-centered.
I’m ending the day tonight happy and thankful. I think about all the ways God has blessed me this year and how he gives me exactly what I need when I need it. 🙂